June 2010

I was just watching a video that was made from our trip to Africa. So many memories came flooding back. Happy and sad, joyful and anger...just a few of the things that came to me. I am preparing to go again with an incredible group of people. Sadly, Mike isn't going on this trip. I am so sad to not have him with me and I know that it will not be the same, but I take comfort in knowing that he will know exactly what I am feeling and will be able to help me get through the tough times when I return. Life throws curve balls that only God knows where they will land. The hard part is not knowing where they will land. I feel so blessed to have my family and I feel so loved by them. I get so mad at myself for the lack of patience I feel at times and the bickering that the siblings do with each other. It seems so petty to me. I try so hard to get them to remember WHO they represent and that I expect more of them. But then I remember that we all have issues and we all sin and we all aren't perfect. They are great kids and so loving and they love being at home and I absolutely love having them home. I have a few friends who are going through such a hard time. Three of them have cancer. One has a cyst in her brain. One isn't sure what is wrong with her, just something is wrong with her body physically. I look at them and they are such testimonies. Their outlook on life is incredible. If I could have the joy that they have, it would be awesome. I just read a book called, "same kind of different as me." What an inspirational book. I highly recommend it. It has become one of my favorites. Denver is a homeless man who meets Debbie. Debbie is an incredible woman who changes the lives of many people, Denver in particular. If even one of us could have the effect on one person, what change we could all have in the world. I want to do God's will and be the best wife and mom that He would want me to be. Life is short so don't waste it......I don't have a lot to give, but I want to give all that I have.